October 5, 2010

deja vu

this is a great example of how science has tried to 'explain' past knowledge and experience. Here are the two sides of the coin:
  • the experience of feeling sure that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously (an individual feels as though an event has already happened or has happened in the recent past), although the exact circumstances of the previous encounter are uncertain. The term was coined by a French psychic researcher, Émile Boirac (1851–1917) in his book L'Avenir des sciences psychiques ("The Future of Psychic Sciences"), which expanded upon an essay he wrote while an undergraduate. The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eeriness," "strangeness," "weirdness," or what Sigmund Freud calls "the uncanny." The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream, although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience has genuinely happened in the past. The experience of déjà vu seems to be quite common among adults and children alike.
And then there is:
  • Scientifically speaking, the most likely explanation of déjà vu is not that it is an act of "precognition" or "prophecy," but rather that it is an anomaly of memory, giving the impression that an experience is "being recalled." and.... encountering something which evokes the implicit associations of an experience or sensation that cannot be remembered may lead to déjà vu.

Hmmm, what science always fails to account for are the 'feelings' associated with deja vu. That absolute innate knowing that something has indeed been experienced before, a person has been met before, something has been said before.......


...the pull is in my muscles...

...the ache is in my bones...

...breathe.... breathe...

...it won't be long now.

September 23, 2010


As a youngster I was hell bent on fixing every problem I discovered... only to be sorely disappointed. Today I am not much different. But since moving to a small community, my focus has narrowed from global to local. I see so much that can be done on a small community level and I can even see some success. It is only since technological advances in communication that we have become so aware (and thus desensitised?) to global events, plights, catastrophes. I think this international awareness has come at the cost of local knowledge and belonging.

Didn't someone smarter than me once say: I am the master of my own kingdom? Well a good leader and a good community ensures that the most marginalised and downtrodden are cared for and acknowledged. I will try to be more aware of my own backyard, frontyard, main street and backstreets......

August 14, 2010


I am beginning to hear familiar whispers again. How exciting

August 8, 2010


"'Tis magic, magic, that hath ravish'd me..."

(Christopher Marlowe, Dr Faustus)

Recent reading includes: Whores of the Devil: Witch Hunts and Witch Trials by Erik Durschmeid. Fascinating.

Today I read about Johann Faust, to whom is attributed the saying: 'to sell your soul to the devil'. He was a German scholar who aspired to learn more, more and more and in doing so, struck a deal with the devil that in return for... his soul... he would know it all! The historic figure is very interesting as there is all sort of discussion as to whether he really was who the historical accounts say he was.

But what strikes me as the most interesting is... what price for all the knowledge in the world?

July 27, 2010


Read this. What do you think?


self discipline

The first and the best victory is to conquer self - Plato

Rule your mind or it will rule you - Horace

Well begun is half done - Aristotle

July 10, 2010

the dark and the new

Dark Moon

Waning and dark moon rites are for guidance and understanding, and for assimilation of wisdom on inner levels. It is a time for quiet inward reflection, reaping the fruits of our wisdom and experience.

New Moon

The new moon is sacred to the maiden of the triple moon goddess, bringing inspiration and intution. It is like a new seed, full pof potential and energy. TRhe new moon is the time for new beginnings, the time to begin new projects, new directions, new resolutions. It is the best time for invocation and speaking out your intent.(Ref': Kindred, 2007)

The dark of the Moon is the most powerful time psychically. It seems to lure us toward the deepest self, the longings of the soul, and restful listening is a great way to receive these messages. It's been compared to the dormant seed under the winter snow, or the cocoon holding the butterfly. You might feel tired, or crave quiet solitude. It's important to make space for the unfolding of the spirit at this time. Like death itself, it's preparation for the new beginning that begins with the crescent. Each dark Moon is a chance to be renewed, to experience unknowing, and to gain timeless wisdom. The dark Moon opens a door to the past, and it reaches back far into the collective memory. Make it a sacred time for yourself each month, a time to connect to the great mystery of life.
(ref: http://astrology.about.com/od/foundations/p/DarkMoon.htm)

July 8, 2010

wyrd is weird

Wyrd is the unfolding of our personal destiny. It has sometimes been translated into modern English as ‘fate’. But it is much deeper than that. It does not see our lives as ‘pre-determined’. Rather, it is an all-encompassing view which connects us to all things, thoughts, emotions, events in the cosmos as if through the threads of an enormous, invisible but dynamic web. Today, scientists know intellectually that all things are interconnected. But the power of Wyrd is to realise this in our inner being, and to know how to use it to manifest our personal destiny.  (ref: Brian Bates wayofwyrd.com)

It can not be understood, yet we already understand.
It can not be controlled, yet we have choices.

July 1, 2010


There is nothing more comforting that one's own hearth. As winter closes in and the introspection begins, the all embracing warmth of a hearth is a comfort that no electrrical applicance can mimic.

How is it possible that such a heat can be soft?

How is it that the sound, smell and sight of a hearth conjures memories so distant, one loses a grip on the now?

There is something primal about staring into the flames and seeing your past, present and future.

I love winter.

June 30, 2010

dreams and realities

We do not live in a country, I think, we live in a world. We are not some disparate collection of arbitrarily drawn boundaries that divide us, but rather a beautiful tapestry of the intricate things that connect us. There is so little we do not share, and so many dreams we have in common.

...how powerful our dreams are, ...it is our dreams that tell us who we really are and what is important for us, ... they are our identity, our reality, our comfort in the dark night and our defence against the false paths strewn in front of us by a society that, so often, does not honour their wisdom. (ref: Paula Constant)

June 29, 2010

soul - stice

hands back in the ground. face turned to the sun. thoughts turned inward.

Solstice. new beginning.

May 17, 2010

May 12, 2010

exotic sweetness...

...of magical times


There is a genuine thrill in watching growth.

The small green shoot emerges from underneath the ground and begins to unfold. Every day, there is clear evidence of how much taller, stronger and greener the new shoots are. It all looks so easy, so graceful.

I am not sure one could call one's own growth a thrilling time... it tends to hurt. Our bones, muscles and tendons scream their resistence. We avoid stepping out into the cold night, we find endless excuses to stay firmly snuggled inside our comfort zone.

Growth hurts. Mine seems very less graceful than my green seedlings.


From within  the vibration of our own notes, our own spirit tone, we hear another's vibration.

Brilliantly clear, it touches every cell of our being.

(Restall Orr)

May 11, 2010


May 3, 2010

new year

new year 2010... samhain

April 26, 2010


This is the dark phase of the year's cycle when the mystery of transformation occurs. It is a magical time. The veil between the seen world of Matter and the unseen world of Spirit becomes thin - a crack in the fabric of space-time. It is a time to drift, dream and vision, a time fore inner journeys connecting to the wisdom within yourself.

Let go of the logical mind. Rebirth and transformation are constantly yours.

try somethings new

Plant purple climbing peas.

welcome my friend

Autumn arrived. Today. On the wind. She is always welcome here.

My first year is coming to a close. Time for the quiet of winter.

April 8, 2010


"Doubt is always there. Perhaps if it weren't, we would not be so very wide awake, nor so open in our senses, listening, watching... Through doubt the world emerges in the colours of our lowest energy, rationalized through our intellect as much as is possible, through those protective belief systems, and stamping with their emotion. Yet in allowing it to express itself, we awake to oursleves a little more. We question, we clarify, we make our choices." (ref: Restall Orr)

Around and around we go

doubt surety
surety doubt
doubt surety
surety doubt



"A new cycle is ready to begin in the quiet of the darkness that is settling aound me and I stand in the gap, the intangible moment that is now, in the stillness, yet where it is ever changing." (ref: Restall Orr)

where have I been?


Lantana was first recorded in Australia in the Adelaide Botanic Gardens in 1841, and a few years later it had spread to gardens up the east coast of the country. By the 1860s it was reported as a weed in both Sydney and in Brisbane. Lantana might look like a strikingly attractive plant and in some respects the foliage and flowers are quite beautiful. The species is native to Mexico, the Carribean and Central and South America. But it is now known as a weed of national significance in Australia.

This is how I describe the distractions I have had recently...invasive but pretty! I have been distrated by the pretty flowers and following all sorts of interesting, but useless, wormholes. I suddenly realised that I was caught in an invasive monster. Fortunately, some diligent weeding has resulted in my own rescue.

So... where have you all been?

March 14, 2010

March 11, 2010

All I want...

Eyes in a moon of blindness

A river in a time of dryness

A harbour in the tempest

(ref: U2)

March 8, 2010

me now

A bindrune symbolising me, now.

March 6, 2010

moving and managing

Summer is going. Winter is slowly coming. We move from light to dark and we need to recognise that different approaches are needed to the way we think and conduct our lives... The dark is as important as the light, but requires a different way of working and a different strategy for managing. (ref: White ad Talboys)


March 1, 2010

ache of the journey

...profound understanding is needed about the nature of pain. We begin by acknowledging that the natural state of the spirit is one of bliss. This is our goal- it is our communion with the earth, it is the touch of the gods, the divine inspiration of perfect freedom and existence... Anything less than bliss is the ache of the journey, with all the colours of its emotional experience.

If denial is the darkness of the unknown, then joy is the pure light of knowing... most people have experienced at least glimpses of this joy, the ecstacy which is their perfect freedom. But while we stuggle through our negative and self-negating beliefs, it tends to come spontaneously and be out of our control. Yet the more we experience it, the more addicted we become, the more we want - and on demand... "If you learn with dedication and commitment, you'll be able to walk in that space whensoever you wish."
(ref: Restall Orr)

full moon

February 28, 2010


se·cu·ri·ty (sĭ-kyŏŏr'ĭ-tē) noun
1.Freedom from risk or danger; safety.
2.Freedom from doubt, anxiety, or fear; confidence.

Finding out our basic motivations is a long process of awakening self-awareness. We watch and take note of our actions and responses, of emotion triggered and expressed, of any circumstance that evokes energy. We start to listen to the messages our physical body is giving us - pockets of tension, knots that tighten, shakes and twitches, internal and external. We learn to break through the barriers of our pride and know the ways in which we - so skilfully- fool ourselves.
...at some point we will come across the blocking assumption which seems to sum up our whole lifetime, explaining every mistake and self-negation in its dreadful repeating pattern. It's not only a fact based upon some occurrence and adorned with attitudes which are our protective decisions... Perhaps these are the very reasons why we have chosen to incarnate: this pattern must be broekn. Only when we start to understand which motivations we hold deep inside us can we begin to live effectively, consciously creating our reality, evading erratic and destructive landslides.
(Ref: Restall Orr)

February 22, 2010

always indulge

anger and letting go

"From fear we can either slip and grab back on, or else we can allow the energy to rise up to where it shifts inot the next emotion: anger, anger at our weakness and our lack of directed progress, anger at the vulnerability that we see withing ourselves or witness around us. But the expression of our anger can be frightening and our energy can fall again, back into our fear.

Only when we start to understand which motivations we hold deep inside us can we begin to live effectively, conscioulsy creating our reality, evading the erratic and destructive landslides." (ref: Restall Orr)

February 20, 2010

chasing tails

"...we need to have a sense of personal satisfaction. Without this, we stagnate. The paradox within this issue is that of wanting to progress, to experience growth through tanglible results, but at the same time we want a life of ease and freedom. It's summed up in the problem of not wanting to do, yet wanting to have done...

In the natural world this paradox is addressed with ease. There is an instinctive understanding as to when to haul in and when to wander out and discover new territory. But in our human psyche, our self-consciousness, which gives us an awareness of our circumstances and the anticiapation, leads us to chase our tail round and round, mentally tying ourselves in knots. Leaping at our tails, we bite down - and wonder at the excruciating pain." (ref: Restall Orr)

February 8, 2010

my fear

February 7, 2010



"When someone goes to the other world he's looking for recipes to bring back into this world in order to make it more pleasurable there." (Malidona Patrice Some)

"The only way that people from the western type of upbringing can appreciate the idea of spirits or gods is to experience them by feeling or seeing them. It is the only way. No explanation will do." (Miguel A Kavlin)

(ref: Shamanic Wisdomkeepers)



And so today I build my own roadways from there to there and back, where I enjoy the advantage of living in two worlds at once - the mundane world and the world 'out-there' where the sun never sets and adventure lurks in every breath, where destiny and free-will meet, and like past and future are irrevocably wedded.
(ref: Eileen Garrett)

February 6, 2010


sometimes we are wise enough to know.
it is the inherent knowledge passed to us.
we step confidently and know that we will not fall.
the past guides us as we look to the present.

and then at other times, we are challenged.
not sure how or when to step forward.
in competition with our ego.
the fight can rage for some time until there is a winner.
but the real winner is the one who has the courage and strength -
that which she knows she already posseses.

February 3, 2010


And then they suddenly came to the wood. It was not far from their cottage, at the back. It looked quite an ordinary wood, except the trees were a darker green than usual.
"It's a magic wood!" said Fanny suddenly.
They stood beneath the trees and peered about. Small freckles of of sunshine lay here and there on the ground, but not many, for the trees were thick.
"It really is magic!" said Fanny. "I can feel magic about somewhere, can't you, Bessie? Can't you, Jo?"
"Yes," said the others...
(ref: Blyton, The Enchanted Wood)

January 30, 2010


when you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen:

there will be something solid to stand on
or, you will be taught to fly
 (ref: Patrick Overton)

Fear not


January 23, 2010


Night time sharpens,
heightens each sensation
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination
Silently the senses abandon their defenses

Slowly, gently night unfurls its splendor
Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender
Turn your face away from the garish light of day
Turn your thoughts away from cold unfeeling light
And listen to the music of the night

Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams
Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before
Close your eyes, let your spirit start to soar
And you live as you've never lived before

Softly, deftly, music shall caress you
Hear it, feel it secretly possess you
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind
In this darkness that you know you cannot fight
The darkness of the music of the night

Let your mind start a journey to a strange new world
Leave all thoughts of the life you knew before
Let your soul take you where you long to be
Only then can you belong to me

Floating, falling, sweet intoxication
Touch me, trust me, savor each sensation
Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in
To the power of the music that I write
The power of the music of the night

(Andrew Lloyd Webber)

January 22, 2010


"As part of our journey of discovery, investigating the whole of life... We can confront the demons in our soul, scream the energy of transformation, dance with the dead and disappear into parallel worlds that make no sense to this one. We can find the child within us, the wizened mage, the clown, the freak; we can be ourselves, tender, beautiful and free..." (ref: Restall Orr)

January 17, 2010

the dark moon

"...the dark moon...is the most powerful time for organically unfolding soul-searching. The inner-self starts to grow in power and make its presence known. Ideally you can listen, integrate and set intentions that will bring you into harmony with yourself during the waxing moon."


"There's a historic pattern of fearing the dark and denying death. But it is a fact of nature, and if embraced, can be met as a winding down before the next growth period." (ref: astrology.about.com)

"...it is the fear that cripples and, if we were to lose that fear while allowing reason to walk with us all the way, life would be very different indeed." (ref: Restall Orr)
Faraway Tree, here I come